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ST. PAUL, Minn. -- Despite a longtime love for painting and a bachelor鱿鱼视频app degree in studio art, Bernadette Gockowski set down her brushes after college. For nine years, she didn鈥檛 make art. When she picked them back up last year, it was begrudgingly.

But the 32-year-old had an experience of grace that reignited her passion and ultimately led to her current project: 鈥淚n the Company,鈥� a watercolour portrait series of modern saints. She has been unveiling one a day via her website, bernadettegockowski.com, and social media throughout the Easter season.

鈥�(With) modern saints ... we have photos 鈥� which is fun to see what they actually look like -- but no one is doing paintings, because we have the photos,鈥� said Gockowski. 鈥淚鈥檓 inspired to take that photo and turn it around. ... I started to do it, and I actually found it very spiritual, and it was a real blessing. It made me reflect on my own life.鈥�

Gockowski grew up on a hobby farm in central Minnesota. Her mother was an artist, and as she watched older siblings excel in various areas, she chose art as her pursuit.

But at St. Olaf College in Northfield, where she majored in studio art and art education, Gockowski also experienced an art scene often dismissive and sometimes hostile to her religious beliefs, and at the end of her senior year in 2009 鈥� when her final project depicted the Stations of the Cross 鈥� she felt dejected.

After discerning religious life, working in youth ministry at two Twin Cities parishes, then marriage and motherhood, she considered selling her art supplies altogether. She thought art too selfish and impractical for a devout Catholic mom.

But last year her husband, David, a fourth-grade teacher at St. Agnes School in St. Paul, signed her up to teach a summer art workshop for middle-schoolers. She was initially annoyed with the commitment, but on a trip to her parents鈥� home, she opened her mom鱿鱼视频app art books for inspiration. One phrase struck her heart: 鈥淭he only thing keeping you from being a great artist is you.鈥�

鈥淚t was as if God were saying that to me, and in one reading of that line, my whole understanding changed,鈥� she told The Catholic Spirit, newspaper of the Archdiocese of St. Paul and Minneapolis. 鈥淢y desire to do art came flooding back so badly that I couldn鈥檛 even sleep. I was so convinced that鱿鱼视频app what I needed to do.鈥�

Caring for her two preschool-age children, Gockowski typically paints about eight hours a week and has a knack for working fast. Her focus is watercolour portraits, and her passion is creating colour images based on black-and-white photographs. 

As Lent approached, she considered how she might use art as a spiritual discipline. After encountering sacrilegious imagery of saints online, she was inspired to apply the concept of the 鈥淭he Colourful Past鈥� to the communion of saints 鈥� 50 portraits based on black-and-white photographs.

That means the project includes no saints before her namesake, St. Bernadette Soubirous, the Marian visionary of Lourdes, France, who lived from 1844 to 1879 and was the first saint known to be photographed. Her project name 鈥淚n the Company鈥� is based on a line taken from the Te Deum prayer, which says, 鈥淭he glorious company of apostles praise you.鈥� It鱿鱼视频app also the idea of being in the company of the saints.

鈥淚 wonder when I die, what will it be like to be in the company of saints. It makes me long to see them. ... I think they鈥檙e very cool people.鈥�

Canada鱿鱼视频app St. Andr茅 Bessette is among the subjects of her watercolours.

Gockowski hopes 鈥淚n the Company鈥� inspires her social media followers 鈥� Catholics and non-Catholics alike 鈥� to delve more deeply into the saints and to think about them as dynamic people who lived real lives. 

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